procrastination

i've been procrastinating a long time about updating my school projects for my portfolio. a long time. in reality it's been a year and a half. but it's been more important then ever for the past 3 1/2 months. ever since i was laid off, i should have been working on my portfolio, making it better. but nothing. i've done some general work. rethinking what i'd like to put in my portfolio. that's about it. while i was working, i reconfigured it so it could be printed on 8 1/2x11 paper. and i also figured out my sample pages. finally.

beyond these updates, i haven't done a thing. so after talking a bit with one of my sorority gals, i actually felt up to looking at the projects i had set aside for updating. opening the files and really looking them over. what did i do wrong? i'm pretty critical of all work including my own, so i knew it wouldn't be perfect. and i knew i wouldn't be pained by dissecting my work so. plus i picked only the better projects to be updated, so that there would be less work to be done on them.

i started in on the redrawing. it wasn't particularly hard, except the layer work. when i drew these drawings i had little understanding of the program. i had to hunt down my original lightweights and layer names. something i should have done when i originally bought this computer. after updating a few things, i decided the best route would be to make a list off to the side of things that needed to be done. that way as things came up while i was drawing something else i could put it down and get to it later.

i've mostly updated the whole of that project, and yet i have no feeling of accomplishment. that i actually even looked at the things was normally a good day. and yesterday i actually spent a few hours drawing, and nothing. maybe cuz now i know how easy it was, and that i really shouldn't have been procrastinating that long.

well... today i'm finishing up that one project. there is some rendering that needs to be done. that might take a while. maybe that'll make me feel better?