returning to school

i had some small concerns before starting my first class of graduate school. would all of the students be professionals? would it be all men and just a few women? what would be expected of me? would it be hard? would i even like it?

i am returning to school of my own accord. i have always wanted to return to school, and since i was laid off in the fall this was the perfect time to do it. so that influences my attitude a bit. i'm a pretty carefree or 'whatever' person anyways and i think knowing i'm in school because i want to be there changes my attitude towards it. though i am still 'whatever', i also know i need to absorb as much information as i can. i think taking time off and realizing i'm nowhere near where i want to be in life helps me every day. i strive to make my life and myself exactly what i want.

well the first day was non-eventful. i showed up super early. quickly realized that the building i thought the class was in, wasn't actually it. i had to kill almost an hour and a half before even heading into the classroom. then there were already people standing around and sitting in the room. i headed in when there was still 30 minutes before the class began. i think my major concern was the amount of women in the class. for a bit there it looked like it wouldn't be too big of a difference. but by the start of class, there were 15 girls and 50 people total in the class. we're a bit out numbered.

the class was ok. my professor was a little dry but he tried an amusing tidbit here and there to liven up the class. no one laughed or smiled but me. i ended up taking 6 pages of notes! i'm not sure if that was ridiculous, but it was only the introduction! who knows how many pages i'll take when something important is actually discussed?!?

i survived the class and am preparing myself for thursday's. we'll see about that one.