some days...

some days are harder than most. and nights are the worst. slowly i start thinking about what to watch on tv, or what to make for dinner, and slowly my thoughts drift towards my economic, career, and relationship situations. tonight is one of those nights. i was doing fine. i spent most of the day making a nice curry and watching bizarre tv offerings. then BAM! i finished watching the a-team and it hit me. a sort of wall. i decided that i would love a drink. not that i have the money or urge to go to my local bar. and i always think of that bottle of gin i bought last fall. not that i'm able to mix a gin and tonic. but i had a lightbulb... esquire.com's drink database. a first pass at a search got nothing, but after looking through the gin drinks i found it. 1:2 or 1:3 ration gin to tonic. i decided on a 1:3 figuring i could always increase if the taste wasn't right. so that was how i ended up sitting in bed, writing about my depressing thoughts, and drinking a gin and tonic. oh how i feel better! i think this helped...